![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() I'm also unhappy with 'having possession of' the word (having the word in my mind) when it wasn't actually said - the 'silent' communication, which isn't as my mind isn't silent, is more uncomfortable, it's got that hidden secretive nature that I imagine the word is in the head of the people around me and I'm uncomfortable that they might be thinking it and that they might know what the material means in my presence when they are strangers in a public place and I'm unhappy about the manner in which the word was communicated - it's not merely about what is said, but the way it which it is said or conveyed or communicated, the snide communication sometimes (snide="offensive in an indirect way") - it's just such an issue and bugbear for me - instead of the word just being said and out in the open and clearing the air, they just make me more bothered by their hidden nature which isn't and by the language lingering in my mind afterwards (sometimes for hours afterwards), pointed out and like being in the air like a bad smell, rather than just saying it, getting it over with, quickly burying it and drawing no attention to it. It's because it's disguised (but truly doesn't disguise anything) that makes me uncomfortable with it and that is part of the offence, as well as its drawing attention. I think this itself causes me to concentrate on details of songs and alterations, however minor, indeed the minor things stand out even more and the major thing stand out anyway, part of the 'problem' is that in a public place environment (where I heard numerous so-called 'clean' songs that each caused me a serious reaction) I take in so much more information than the average person and don't shut out some of it.Īnyway, I came back to post that it's also because the soundtrack of altered versions is trying to "hide" the language, the hidden nature to them, when it truly isn't hidden since I know what they mean or get some meaning from them whatever that meaning is, makes the material more uncomfortable (when heard with other people - or in fact - it's worse - the 'clean' version is not merely heard but is *listened to* as it causes me to focus and concentrate on it rather than just hearing it as the original). I'm sorry I go on, but people may understand if I also explain I have an autism spectrum disorder. ![]()
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